Agony in the Garden
And he was withdrawn away from them a stone's cast, and kneeling down, he prayed, Saying:
Father, if thou wilt, remove this chalice from me: but yet not my will, but thine be done. And
there appeared to him an angel from heaven, strengthening him. And being in an agony, he
prayed the longer. And his sweat became as drops of blood, trickling down upon the
ground. - Luke 22:41-44
Addictions can cause some of the most painful agony known to man. The agony comes when I
have full knowledge of my sinfulness yet feel paralyzed to overcome it. I fear the slightest
temptation yet I will not resist to the point of shedding blood. Christ experienced and took on the
agony of my addictions. In the darkness on the Mount of Olives He fell to His knees in prayer as
the temptations of my addictions approached. He fought my addictions not with legions of angels or
bands of apostles but alone in prayer. Christ has overcome the world and He has overcome my
I now have three choices before me in my own agony in the garden as it were when faced with a
temptation towards my addiction. First, I can imitate Christ and recommit myself more earnestly to
prayer even to the point of shedding blood. Secondly, I can imitate the apostles and close my eyes
to the situation and fall asleep spiritually hoping that when I awake it will be a new day. However, I
know this will not happen. The apostles were awaken by a blood and sweat soaked Jesus rebuking
them for not praying with Him for just one hour. Lastly, I can choose to imitate Judas and betray
the Lord with a kiss. I can give Him "lip service" yet keep my heart far from conversion and union
with His agony.
Lord, help me to trust in you and pray and choose “death rather than sin,” death rather than my
addiction. "Dost thou betray the Son of Man with a kiss?"
Our Father, Hail Mary, Glory Be, Etc.
Additional clause: ...of thy womb, Jesus, who suffered in the Garden
for my addictions.